Will It NEVER END??

The checkride has been postponed yet again; now it's scheduled for this upcoming Thursday. Basically that means I'll have to go to Purdue Sunday night, attend the CFI seminar Tuesday and Wednesday, then drive back to Chicago Wednesday night. After the check ride, I have to head back to Purdue for the standardization flight Friday or Saturday. Before I started this CFI stuff, I had been told it was hard, but no one said it would be anywhere near THIS HARD.

To be perfectly honest, if I had known it would be like this, I'd never have done it. I know a lot of you are responding with things like "Don't worry, you'll do fine," but I'm serious; it's not worth it. Even my Mom agrees with me. The only reason I'm continuing this is because I've already wasted so much time and money on it. This has been a bad enough experience that I don't want to instruct at all anymore.
A large part of the problem is an instructor who is perpetually ticked-off at the world (I've NEVER seen her in a good move in the couple of months I've been there) who seems more interested in creating clones of herself than anything else. She's convinced beyond all reason that guided discussion is the only valid method of teaching in existence and will blow up at you if she catches you lecturing for even a few seconds (and I mean blow up, as in explode, as in borderline verbally abusive). Even the FAA Aviation Instructor's Handbook talks about the validity of the lecture method in many settings. The key is to choose your method of teaching based on the materials at hand and the audience (my Mom, for example, hates it when someone tries guided discussion on her).

Needless to say I am very overwhelmed and frustrated from all of this. I need a vacation, but at this point the craziness of last semester would be a vacation compared to this. I'm going to have to stay up late tonight (just like seemingly every other night the last few weeks) working on homework so I can go do this all over again tomorrow. By the time I get done each day (usually around 6pm, after starting at 9am with a half hour lunch break every few days), I'm so tired I can barely stand (and even more exhausted emotionally). I need some serious prayer in all of this. In an ideal world, I'd pass the checkride on Thursday but then somehow not instruct at Purdue this fall (I'd much rather spend the time on my classes and Cru stuff). It seems they go hand-in-hand however, so I'll likely end up instructing this fall.

I don't know when I'll update next. Maybe once I get to Purdue to announce my presence, but most likely not until I get done with the checkride. Please be praying that I'll survive the next couple of days and that I'll pass this checkride on the first try so I can finally be done with all of this.